Prepare for snow in Georgia, I’m actually writing another post already.

Prepare for snow in Georgia, I’m actually writing another post already.

It’s FriYAY! ❤

Today is a wonderful day. It’s only 10:30am but I already feel like I have accomplished something great. This morning I finally put my procrastination and anxiety aside and told myself to just go in and do my permit test. No, I’m not a 15 year old who has never driven before but I did have to get my permit before I could get my license here in the States.

This is something  that I have avoided and made excuses for so long now it actually got ridiculous. I got my license and car back home when I was 18 and I love driving, but I hate tests and having to redo my learners/ permit test here was really stressing me out more than it should have. Weeks kept going by and even though I’d done the online practice tests a gazillion times I was still so worried I’d go in and fail it.

I planned on going this Saturday (like I had planned to go last Saturday and never ended up going) but last night it hit me that I’m the only one being affected by me not just sucking it up and doing it. I’m going to two Halloween parties this weekend so that would have made it even easier to procrastinate again this weekend. So I woke up early, and went to do the test before work without telling anyone.

Luckily it was empty, and even though I could feel my hands shaking I just kept telling myself that if highschool American kids can do this, then I can do this. I know I’m a good driver and all I needed to do was get past this stupid test and I’ll be one step closer to doing my drivers, a car and my independence.

I stressed over getting my permit so unnecessarily. It was ridiculously easy and it was over before I knew it. I couldn’t believe how dumb I had been avoiding doing it for so long. This might not seem like a big deal, but I really feel proud of myself for finally doing the test and getting my permit. It made me realize that I do build things up and stress myself out way more than I need to. I realized I just need to focus on my goals and not let anything get in the way of reaching them; especially myself.

I cannot wait for the day I get my drivers and finally won’t have to constantly rely on uber or my friends. Next weekend I’m moving into an apartment and will finally have my own space. Just being able to leave your toiletries in your bathroom, have your own bed, have your own closet, and just have a room to call your own is something I definitely took for granted.

It has taken me awhile to get settled, but I’m aiming for progress not perfection. ❤


How is this my second blog post all year?

How is this my second blog post all year?

I don’t even know where to start and of course when I finally put pen to paper my pen doesn’t work properly. (Not taking it as a sign, gets new pen)

Last year I got into the habit of writing regularly and I didn’t delay capturing my thoughts for very long. I really loved it. It was a way I could look back and see what was on my mind at that time. I wish I had forced myself to set aside time to sit, gather my thoughts and just write more often this year.

Before my Eurotrip I had planned on making an amazing GoPro video as well as writing a post for each country we went to. We ended up being so busy that when we weren’t busy – we were sleeping. It was the most incredible three weeks, but the late nights led to nocturnal sleeping habits as we pretty much just slept on the bus while we travelled to the next place in the day (No regrets). I definitely wish I wrote more throughout the trip but I did take tons of photos and will always have the memories. Eventually I will finish the video and post about my European adventure but for now I’m just glad I’m actually writing so I’m just going to keep going.

The trip flew by and I headed back to NYC to visit family and friends in NJ before getting back to reality with my life in Georgia. I started putting the videos together and sorting out my photos but it honestly made me miss my best friend and my family so much that it led to a lot of procrastination.

The weeks after getting back went so quickly and July had become August, August became September, September became October, and all of a sudden it is the bloody 20th of October. It is kind of scary when you think about how quickly the months go by without even realizing it. I mean come on, by the end of December I would have lived in America for TWO YEARS. *Mind blown*

For the first time in my life I have an amazing, stable and intriguing job. I am so grateful for it everyday even though it’s just a job. It makes me feel productive and significant, and it has given me the opportunity to really settle into real life in Atlanta. Before my trip I was comfortable not doing anything serious for work and just wanted to save up and be able to travel. Then afterwards I went through a strange place trying to understand what I want, how I’m going to get it, and what need to be my priorities. So having a steady salary paid 9-5 job might not seem ideal to many 23 year olds but it is exactly what I needed.

Other than that it hasn’t been an easy four months. I moved in with a friend of a friend who opened up her home to me when I basically had nowhere to live. I am so grateful for her kindness. After a few weeks I moved in with some awesome friends who let me crash in their spare room. They are such genuine and kind people, and they helped me to get my head in the right space just by giving me a room to call my own. I never realized how much I had taken things like a bed for granted my whole life. This year has been a hell of a ride for my messed up back living life as a nomad couch surfing.

When I moved to Brookhaven I had no real job (just waitressing) and had no idea what I was going to do. I spent weeks looking for jobs online and after spending a day handing out my resumes to wherever I possibly could, I got a call from my family friend that night. He explained his friend is an Attorney and their firm was looking for a new Administrative Assistant/ Receptionist. I emailed him my resume immediately, went for an interview the next day, and had an offer emailed to me later that night 🙂

However when it comes to taking care of myself and staying productive personally, it has been a struggle and I’ve definitely lacked ‘me-time’. All the moving back and fourth (I am now back in Sandy Springs, long irrelevant story) really impacted my mental state and motivation towards fitness; which prior to my trip was a huge part of my mental and physical wellbeing.

After a much needed candle-lit bubble bath, I’ve realized that I really need to start taking my own advice and also work on not feeling guilty putting my myself and my happiness first. It hit me that yes I can keep procrastinating but it is literally only detrimental to my life if I don’t start making an effort to work on my own happiness. When I am happy, I am excited to get shit done and cross things off my list, but I tend to stay busy and distracted to avoid thinking about everything that stresses me out and it is a problem I am aware of.

I know I should feel proud of my accomplishments but it is hard to see the bigger picture when there is still so much to be done. Primarily being a car, apartment and my post-graduate studies; which are all way easier said than done when you are pretty much doing it alone.

Looking forward to camping tomorrow night. There is just something about being in nature that makes me happy and free from the stresses of life. Rant over – I don’t even know where I am getting at anymore but I’m glad I picked up my Van Gogh notebook and just started writing tonight. I clearly needed it.